So
what do you do when you trust God with all you have, believing He will provide,
and time and time again everything around you comes crashing down?
How
do you deal with constant disappointments? How do you continue believing that
God will meet your needs when doors appear open before you and just as you put
your foot across the threshold; BAM ... the door slams shut.
You stepped forward in faith, you sought God's will, and time after time the
very thing you hoped would help turn life around falls flat and instead your
circumstances have become more dire.
I
need answers. My usually rock-solid faith has suffered so severely these last
few months that I'm reaching the point where giving up looks like the best
option. I've reached the point where faith feels like a set-up for extreme
hurt. I've watched expectantly, excitedly, as I thought God was moving, only to
see circumstance after circumstance turn out the exact opposite of my hopes.
Today
was my last blow. It's not something I can talk about freely, but just another
issue in what has become a list so long I'm shaking in bewilderment that once
again I'm bawling my eyes out and screaming "why" at God... instead
of singing praises for His provisions.
And
here comes Christmas, a new baby to be born, and not one bit of hope that we
will even be able to continue to afford to have a roof over our heads to keep her and my precious toddler safe.
So...what
would YOU do?
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